SO. this past week i've been mega sick. like no joke. i'm feeling a lot better today though which i'm pumped about.
today i also ordered this work out thing called INSANITY. and let me tell you. it looks insane.
it should be here at the beginning of next week and i am stokeddd.
i want to get my ass beat lol and then on top of that steve and i are gonna run.
so i probably will be pretty drained these next couple months. but let me tell you. i need it.
i also got a bunch of new shirts (no pants because that and swim suits will be my reward after INSANITY lol)
AND we got a new washer and dryer. all which should be coming this week sometime.
i'm crossing my fingers for that anyway.
my birthday is coming up soooon. i'm super excited to be 21.
but honestly, i don't care too much. i'm more excited about INSANITY.
the first 30 days of it are only 30 min work outs so running should be easy to fit in there.
but then the last 30 days. ughh. they're hour work outs. soooo i'll be pretty beat.
BUT i am going to do it. it was 154 bucks. of course i'm gonna do it.
plus i just need to challenge myself. i'm bored.
right now i have to figure out what my work schedule is.
steve works tomorrow at 3. so hopefully i work like...not at all lol
i wanna start training for this workout so i go into it as prepared as i can.
wish me luck! i'm gonna start a youtube blog about it.
i'll post it later.
much <3

weird

utah is weird. like. another planet. well. more like an alternate universe. its creeepy. i want normal people back. and i feel like utahan's think i'm the weird one....i guess here i am. but in any other state i wouldn't be. i wish i could describe it. just can't. everyone is just so innocent....like the grown-up version of barney. bleeechh.

i'm sick of my job. idc that i get free tanning. i have nothing to wear to the job and when i think i do its "too casual" or "too revealing" wtf ever. shit. go to church if you don't wanna see me in a tank top sweater combo. fuckkkk. and i'm sick of working til close or 7 every night. its ridiculous. and then when i asked to change my availability so i could see steve for once and so he didn't have to walk to work, i was told you look for a new job. and hey, i am. but its not that easy. its ridiculous. fucking mormons.

i made the gayest song. ever. steve loves it though. thinks its good or something...catchy i think. not good haha.

i hate that steve is in the airforce. i think though i rely too much on steve for support. what am i gonna do with my life? working on it i guess. i miss school. i miss ny...but only because thats where all my good friends are and most of my family lives/visits.

i'm working out today. football season is over. and so is my laziness i guess. gotta start somewhere. eating healthy would be helpful too. working on that. i think once financially we know where we are, it'll be easier to revamp. badaboom.

i want summer. i always want summer. hawaii would be great. we need a vacation.

maybe if we didn't need a washer & dryer we would just save our tax return for a vaca. but oh well. we can't take any time off until steve is done with his cdc's anyway. =/

i just wanna get outta here. i think we're both going crazy.

today i was thinking about the notebooks we used to pass around in middle school writting notes to each other. lol hey waz ^?! n2mgoh.....hahahh idk why we thought we were so cooool! i wish i kept one at least. it'd be fun to read those hahah

i need to clean. and work out. booo